Not a fun post...

I figured I should put something on here...it feels weird not to.

We have some sad news. I had been having some serious anxiety regarding the baby last week. I figured it was just because my UltraSound was coming up this week, and that was when we found out we lost the last baby in March.

Things got bad by Wednesday,  I hadn't been sleeping, and my emotions were out of control. I knew something was wrong. My sister finally talked me into going into the Dr. to hear the heartbeat so I could relax.

Curtis met me there, and we found out that once again, we have lost the baby. No heartbeat. I went into the hospital on Thursday and was enduced. Everything went well, no complications, which I am very thankful for.

This has been a big blow to our family...my kids are very sad. It's times like these though, when you count your blessings. Curtis and I are so thankful that we were able to have the 3 beautiful kids we do have with no complications. Things could always be worse, and are for many people. I think we were just meant to be a family of 5, and I am ok with that. We have a great family. I couldn't ask for better kids...they are so sweet, and take good care of me. Curtis is amazing...he knows what I need, and when I need it. I know he is hurting too, but he never skips a beat when it comes to taking care of me, or comforting me.

We are doing well...and will be fine. I have the best family and friends who are there for me at every turn. I dont know what I would do without you all. I'm taking some time to get through this...and will let you know when the sun is shining on us again.

Comments

[Coneen Biggs]

Candice and Curtis I am so sorry. Know that you are loved. You have such darling kids. You are such a strong amazing family. We are so proud of you and how you are living your life. You are both such a good example to the rest of us. I know through prayer you can have comfort and peace, especially at this time of year. He understands what you are going through. You are in our prayers. Love Coneen

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oh candice, my heart hurts for you and your family. I'm so sorry that this is a trial you have had to face more then once. You are in my thought & prayers. Hang in there!

[Tarakay Biggs]

i am so sorry Candice and Curtis, that is just awful. You guys are the best parents ever and I know that Lord is watching out for you and your family. Please know that Jon and I are thinking of you and love you guys too pieces. Our prayers are with you and your family. Hugs

[deana]

"Our hardest times can be times of greatest growth, which in turn can lead toward times of greatest happiness." (Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin). I love this quote, it has helped give me strength. Our prayers are with you all! xoxoxo

[annette]

Candice, I am so sorry you are going through this. I am thinking of you every day.

[Lynette van Barrelo]

I'm still thinking of you and I'm so glad you're feeling the love from everyone everwhere. Your attitude is amazing and the Sun will shine on you soon enough.

Much love and many hugs coming at you from downunder. XX

[KatherineB]

I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. Unfortunately I know your pain all too well too. Take heart in knowing you are loved by your wonderful husband and kids and obviously everyone who reads this blog. As hard as it is, make the most of the Christmas season with the family and friends you have. God bless and good luck.

this is Stephanie, sorry

I'm so sad for you and your family. If there is anything you need just let me know. I'm still here.

[Kristi Smith]

Still thinking about and praying for you all. {{Hugs}}